Day 56 of 166 days

Had my WI yesterday, I was down 2.3 lbs..
Im really happy about that number, considering I was up 4 lbs shortly after my last WI. So that means I lost that 4 and another 2.3.. hell yeah! Not to mention its my TOM so Im super bloated! And have cramps from hell :(

Id like to lose 5 more lbs before new years. Its realistic. I would like to shoot for a bigger goal like 7.8 cause that will put me at 30 lbs lost!! But it IS the holiday season and I just know that that is definitely not realistic for ME right now.
I am going to try my hardest to not over indulge this season though. I do plan on drinking tonight since Sabrina is having  a gift exchange/party at her house :D But she also made all the snacks from Skinnytaste, so I know there are better options. I will track and I will keep hydrated as well.
Rob was supposed to go with me but I guess we don't have a babysitter *rolls eyes*
Im not even gonna start on that cause it pisses me off to no end.
Im looking forward to it anyways, but it would have been awesome if Rob could finally come to one of these parties with me :(


I also know I will drink some Christmas eve, which is fine with me, but I also know I wont go overboard.. since I need to be 100% in the morning!!!! :D So excited for the kids. I love Christmas.

Anyways I haven't been posting much, but Rob got home on Tuesday :D
So I have been spending most of my time with him.

Will post again in a few days. Hope everyone is staying healthy!

Day 51 of 166 days

My upper thighs are killing me today! I love it though. I always love when new parts of me are sore from working out. I always feel like I should have pushed even harder if Im not a certain amount of sore the next day lol.
So week 3 of RI30 is by far the worst (so far) Katy over at My Hectic Life has finished all 4 weeks and says week 4 is the worst.. so Im scared for it but so glad Im doing it!

I have major pms the past few days.. and Im nervous for my WI on Thursday.
I definitely feel super bloated and don't see that changing by then.
So Im not gonna be expecting a big number.
Especially since at the beginning of these 2 weeks I put a few pounds back on after losing big last month.
So I will just be glad if I am down the few pounds I put on.
I also made some no bake peppermint chocolate cookies last night.. and against my better judgment ate a few.
They are sooooo freaking good though. Was well worth the calories lol. Today I must stay away though. I need to package them up and send them and the rest of my parcels out today.

Today is Meatless Monday, so Im making a zucchini, black bean and rice skillet for dinner. And probably gonna have vegetarian chilli for lunch today.

Yesterday I had Dijon and lime roasted chicken , with dill carrots and garlic roasted asparagus for dinner, sooo good!

Gonna head to the gym shortly, and do my DVD tonight once the kids are in bed.

It will be my first day back at the gym in over a week.

I know once Rob is home we will be going daily, which  Im looking forward to. I love having his support.

He gets home tomorrow night!!!!! :D

Super..super late, but he will be home!

Bloggers for Health Week 8

5 Goals for the future

1. Keep getting better. I'm doing so well with this whole lifestyle change. Sure I have my moments where I feel like I slipped up, but I finally am in a place mentally to pick myself up every single time I "fall". I workout almost everyday. I eat good things. Im eating ENOUGH. I am so proud of me. I try to push myself a little bit harder every time I work out. And at the end of the day I know I am doing such an amazing thing for myself, and for my family.
2. I would like to lose 25 lbs by my trip in April. I think that is VERY doable, I HOPE I lose more lol, but I will be super stocked if I can lose 25 lbs by then :) that would put me at 45 lbs lost.
3. I have more confidence than I have had in a while. I was always good at faking it lol, but now I actually have it! So another goal would just be to Keep that up!
4. Get back to the gym on a regular basis. I have been working out at home, and things got in the way of going to the gym, and I kind of stopped going. I would like to do my DVD at home AND also go to the gym. Tomorrow is Monday and they have daycare so I will go while Aiden is in school.
5. Try new recipes. I suck at cooking, I really don't enjoy cooking that much. But there are so many I want to try, so I will try something new every week.

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Day 48 of 166 days

First of all check this website out if you haven't already www.mybodygallery.com.
You put in your height, weight shirt/pants size and it gives you pictures of other ladies with your info.
Kinda sweet to see how different they all look.. and you can then plug in your goal weight and check those out too :)

Went shopping yesterday with Sabrina from Blog, you guys should follow and support her too, if you aren't already doing so :), it was fun! I finally got most of my Christmas shopping done. Still need a few things for the boys and stuff for Rob, if we are buying each other stuff. I have a feeling we will just skip presents for each other again this year. Given the fact that Rob switched jobs and we are just catching up now, money wise.
I just want him home for Christmas, thats the best gift I can receive this year!
5 more days until he's home.. *sigh*.

Doing week 2 days 6 of RI30 today.. I have been doing an extra 5-10 minutes of abs after the workout. I feel like it doesn't workout my stomach enough, and thats where I  really want to notice some changes. I see changes in my arms and legs, which I am stoked about :D But if I can do it I may as well get that little bit of extra work in there too lol
 I may also do my pilates video tonight.

Im gonna have to do my video early tomorrow, cause Im hoping to have my nieces sleep over tomorrow night. If I can ever get a hold of my SIL. lol

My blogoversary is in 18 days! Its almost been a year since I started this blog. And its kinda sad how far I have NOT gone. I will have over 20 lbs lost in one year... which I guess is a good thing, but not a great thing. I stopped and started a few times this past year. I had lost 30 lbs in the beginning and gained most of it back, so I am still working on RE-losing that weight  *sigh* But Im getting there. At least I am smaller than last year. Im not gonna make next year another year I wasted.

Day 45 of 166 days

So only 4 months until my Dominican trip.... yikes.

I had such a great WI last week, it should have motivated me to stay on top of things, and in a way it did. But I have kinda lost it the past few days. I have been over eating and eating things that aren't good for me.

I feel like complete crap about it, physically I feel like crap, but it keeps spiralling out of control.

wtf!? 

I stepped on the scale (which I wasn't going to do for another 2 weeks) because I KNEW I gained some of what I lost back. I did... I needed to see it, cause today Im feeling like Im on top of it again. 

Im not proud of myself for how out of control I got. But I am proud that it only last a little while. Soon enough I won't have these issues. 

Allowing myself to eat pizza one day won't mean I have to over eat, and if I do over eat it won't mean I have to keep going. I thought I was past that, Apparently I am not.

I feel like a freaking drug addict who just got out of rehab.  

I need to get my ass in gear today, get back to my Ripped in 30. 

Week 2 is brutal.. I'm scared for the next 2 weeks after this lol !!

But I really need to be who I was last week and just fucking do it. Nothing is stopping me except myself.

So Im going from this...

to this...

seriously.. 

I also have my period, a week early!? fuck.

I don't know what I should do pill wise now. I guess I keep taking it the same as I would. and then next week when I am supposed to have it, it won't come? or will it be like 2 weeks long!? cause my cramps are killing me this time. Which hasn't happened in a LONG time.

It works out great that I got it this week (as long as I don't ALSO have it next week lol) because Rob is home next week, and how annoying would that be to have it after he's been gone for 3 weeks.. I might actually die lol.

So he leaves camp Tuesday.. and I thought he would be over nighting in Vancouver, like he did on his way there. But apparently they fly him from Van to Edmonton, but on the red eye! So I will be packing the kids in the car at like 2 am Wednesday to go pick him up... they will sleep in the car, but its still disruptive, and will for sure throw off their days. Rob offered to just crash at the hotel near the airport.. but seriously!? You have been away for 3 weeks, I want to see you. Not to mention it seems kinda wasteful to spend money on a hotel AN HOUR AWAY lol.

Yesterday Atreyu had a Christmas baking class, it was fun, we go every year.

I also went for lunch with a friend yesterday. Actually it was Robs ex...... lolol. It was his only other "serious" relationship aside from ours. They were together a couple years. But to be fair that was like nearly 10 years ago.... so I think we are ok lol. Not to mention she has 3 kids and has been with her guy as long as Rob and i have been together.

I also met her while she was dating Rob, which is the first time I also met Rob lol

She is super nice though, I had fun. We have been talking online for years, but never actually hung out.

I better go finish getting the kids ready for their days and once Atreyu goes to his play class I will work out... because,

True story bro.

HELLO DECEMBER

Its December first and WI DAY!!!

I got on the scale and was shocked! I mean I wasn't supposed to WI all of November but in the first week I has sneaked a peek and not seen a change AT ALL so it made me want to keep checking, even though I was doing great working out and eating my calories, it wasn't moving for the first 2 weeks. Once I finally saw it start moving I stopped looking, so for the past 2 weeks I havent looked and when I got on this morning and saw it move from 273.9 to 267.1 I was soooo happy!
Thats 6.8lbs!!! Wow!
All my hard work is paying off. Im eating all my calories and some days I feel like I eat too much actually, but MFP tells me to eat them, so I try to, and look what happens. I LOSE WEIGHT lol, go figure.
Its hard to get out of that mind frame that to lose weight you must eat less, but eff that! Its just not true!
I work my ass off, trust me I do. But I also feed my body properly.. and it loves me for it :D

I don't know if you can tell but I am SOOOO happy !!! lol

I also owe a lot of that weight loss to Jillian Michaels and her Ripped in 30! This past week that I have done it I feel stronger and muscles that I don't workout at the gym have been getting a workout.
So I am gladly going to continue with that.

This morning I am going to eat breakfast and in a little bit I will be heading into Edmonton to go to Spa Lady with Sabrina :D
Ive never gone to an all ladies gym. And I haven't gone to any other gym at all this past year besides Servus, so that will be cool to see what different stuff they have. I love my gym though and would never switch lol, but it will also be fun to have a friend to work out with .