I wasn't sure if I was gonna make a post about "being back on the wagon", cause my mind is in a completely different kind of place now. There is no wagon! I can't fall off. I can't get back on. There is just me and my life. And me doing what I need to do to get my life back.
I have slowly been getting to this place in my head that is making this a lot easier for me to accomplish.
And I have been going through some really emotional life changing events lately. And I just realized that all I have is me. If I don't love me and take care of me, no one will. No one can!
I feel like a new person already. I want to find that girl inside of me who was meant to be here. Not this sad depressed fat girl who can't do the things she wants to do in life. I have not been present in my life, and I want to be.
I'm not struggling with my weight; I'm struggling with my mind. If I loved myself more my weight wouldn't be a problem. So I am trying to figure out what it is that made me get the way I am (size wise and mental health wise). I am taking care of my mental health and my physical health will be much easier to tackle.
