And we start again.

I gained all the weight back... and a little more.

I tried thinking of a way to ease into that sentence, but fact is, I gained it all back. Plain and simple.

Im battling myself on a daily basis.
If I could I would sleep all day. But I have kids and a job.
I've been thinking of going back on meds for depression, but I really don't want to, and Im not 100% convinced that I need to.
I want to try and take care of this myself.
And A huge place to start is to lose some weight.
Start feeling good about myself again.
I don't want people to worry, cause I'll be ok. I always am.
But I don't really have much else to post right now.
I figured Id make it short and to the point about my weight gain.

Today has been good, I feel motivated today to stay on track calorie wise. And with my cleaning job I get a workout in most days. So I feel like as long as I stay within my calories I should be able to shed some weight fairly quickly.

I do plan to blog more, and read your blogs more.

Anyways, thats where I am right now :S


On a positive note. I got a "Miss You" Box from Linda (my aunt).
And Linda you already know this, but I bawled when I read the card and the back of the pictures.
I needed that so bad. I miss my family. I miss you. I love BC very much! And this is the place I want to live, ideally. But when Rob is gone, I feel that much more alone.
But that "Miss You" box, was so special to me.
You are my person for a reason!
You always seem to know when I need a pick me up lol
And I am soo proud of how far you have come in your weight loss journey! Seriously, its crazy how different you look! I cried looking through the pictures on your blog!
You motivate me. You are the little voice in the back of my head that tells me to try again and keep moving on.
I heart you!

Happy Turkey Day!

Just a short post. Wanted to say Happy Thanksgiving to all you Canadian folk.
Im making my first turkey this year, normally I go to a member of my families house but since I live in BC and have no family it falls on me to cook the turkey now lol.

Rob is at work.. which is good, because he had been off for 6 weeks.. and thats not good for anyone. I didn't remember what it was like to be this broke. But in the spirit of Thanksgiving I am thankful for my job, for my jewelry business actually making some money, and for Rob to be at work finally.
Im thankful for my kids, our home, and my family (whom I miss ridiculously).

I have tomorrow off work and the kids will be at school, so I will do a longer blog post then :)