Life has no remote. Get up and change it yourself!

So I don't know what is happening with me, but I'm loving it!

I have been been kicking some serious ass in the gym and have been eating amazingly.

The fact that I upped my calories is helping me SOOOO much.

I actually have a hard time trying to eat all my calories

(because when you eat healthy fibre rich foods, they don't cost as many calories as the less filling crap I was used to. Who knew?! lol).

I have been more focused on health and trying to just love me for who I am despite the body I am in... and maybe even possibly loving my body?

(Ok, ok, I'm not quite there just yet lol)

I am slowly seeing changes

(at this point its probably just the fact that I'm not constantly bloated mind you).

CHANGES!!

And I am making them happen!

I have been here before, and actually been 15lbs lighter than I am today,

but I feel different this time.

I feel like I am actually aware of what is going on with my body.

I actually feel connected to it this time.

I KNOW that I am the one in control, I am the one making myself stronger and healthier.

It's kind of an amazing feeling.

I'm pretty much in love with it.. just sayin'.

I ran today!

(Well, more of a jog, but it was "running" to me lol)

I did my normal 6 laps around the track and then went on the rowing machine.

Then decided to do another 4 laps.

I walked the first quarter of the lap and then ran the rest!

I couldn't breath by the end of the lap lol but I did it!

And I waited for my heart rate to get back to a decent pace and ran some more.

I continued to do this for the rest of the 3 laps

(Running until I couldn't breath and my heart rate was super high, and then walking it off and letting my heart rate get down to a more normal pace before running again).

In all of my fat jiggling glory I felt SO good about myself!